There are many things that I have committed to working through. One of which is complete honesty at all times. As many know in my life I haven't always been honest, partly a dance with fear, and mostly a huge pride issue.
I was listening to this broadcast on my way home from college church service. The station is called hope hotline (or something incredibly catchy. It is a hotline where counselors have the ability to talk with you through virtually any circumstance or concern you may have throughout the night. The host of the show also talks with screened calls and uses certain calls to open up dialogue with those that are potentially afraid to call. The neatest piece of the show is the time at which it occurs. They have designated the night hours as the hours they will work. Apparently studies have shown that more suicidal tendencies occur in the night, more worry, anxiety, and depression find their way into the minds of millions of people around the world.
Here is a chance for me to be completely vulnerable: read on if you feel so inclined.
As many know and some may not. I have been called to full time missions. In January, I am moving to Joburg, South Africa. Through the process of waiting, preparing both mentally/ spiritually, and ridding myself of nearly all that I own I have found myself more and more thankful for God's provision. One thing stands in the doorway of me going freely. This is not to say that I do not trust God and what he plans on doing through this.
I am saying that if I am too prideful to not allow God to work through those He loves, than it isn't the car that stands in my way it's me.
I have a nice little silver Honda Civic. The nicest or least nice thing about it is, I have a loan on the vehicle. About a month ago I had a small mishap on 1-35. One of the wonderful semi's left a huge chunk of tire on the roadway. Needless to say repairs need to be done before I try and sell the vehicle. I could write all of the details down as I tend to be a little too detail oriented at times, but I will spare you. (unless you feel a tugging to help, in which case follow the asterisk and read*)
My prayer is that you would consider partnering with me in this last leg of the race. I am not sure what that looks like, but I don't want to limit what God would like to do. If your uncle or aunt is a car dealer and wants to buy the car as is, or if you just won the lottery and want to buy it from me and give it to someone in need. Or if you want to pray every single day for provision to pay the loan back each month. I am up for any of it. I know it is in His hands.
He calls us and we are supposed to do one thing. Obey.
There is no promise of an easy life, but there is a promise of his forgiveness and love.
For that I am thankful.
*If you feel compelled to help in some manner please contact me callahanrr@gmail.com, where I am more than willing to send you pictures, give you loan amounts, kelly blue book amounts, vin number, etc.
God loves you as do I.
May each of us pursue Him wholeheartedly, keeping nothing from Him.
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